KINDNESS IS

SHOCKING

BELIEVING IS

SKIING

SLIMMING

FATTENS

EMAGRECER

ENGORDA

SILENCE EQUALED DEATH

When I arrived at my door I heard a dog barking next door. So they had gotten a dog. It would bark every time it smelled one of the neighbours arriving. It was a shrill bark. I figured it was too small to do anything but be crushed by a true invading criminal. So maybe the idea was to have some more noise in their lives. The kids were older and quieter. Too much silence equaled death for them. Perhaps. I was not going to ask why. I decided it was one more sign that I should keep softly playing noisy music all the time on my stereo. I had a new slightly unpleasant noise added to my list of unwanted sounds I had to deal with. I drank to that until I felt very sleepy. Then I showered. Then I ate some instant noodles. I woke up with an open book by my side.

SURE IT IS A SICK JOKE

Sure it is a sick joke about innocent people who got murdered. But if you believe in the afterlife then you can laugh because they are fine. And if you believe they were destroyed forever you can laugh because having them here for a short time is better than not at all. I MEAN WAKE THE FUCK UP AND KNOW YOU ARE FREE TO LAUGH. Get a gun if it makes you feel safer. Either way you surely have the right to defend yourself. And fuck the humorless. They should shut the fuck up and grow up. Please?

MAKE NO MISTAKE

We cannot prove the existence of any god or meaning to this life. We just believe it or not and then again what really matters is how nice we are to each other. Maybe. The fuck we know but we sure suspect that love and science might take us higher. We mean we need both. Get used to it.

BLESS THE DAY

Yeah I was painting this canvas that was so big I had to push everything in my living room to the walls just to unroll it on the floor. It was going on for weeks. Then this hot female friend called me on the phone and decreed that I needed to dance and have some fun. She was so right. We danced a lot and then I took her back to her place. She did not invite me up to her pad. But she kissed me on my neck instead of my cheek when we said goodbye. That was the closer I ever got to having sex with her and I was happy like crazy. Last time I saw her she was fatter and even hotter. Maybe some day. Maybe not. So what? I bless the day I met her. Wish I knew the precise date. And then again who needs to know the exact day? Not anyone I know or heard about. Keep on if you believe.

SOME OTHER

She saw a cab and yelled for it. Her loud voice surprised me. The fact that the driver heard it and stopped was even more surprising. We were in one of the biggest cities of the planet. Even on a side street, it was a surprise for a human voice to be heard through the glass of the car's windows and above the noise. I figured that in ten or twenty years this would be no surprise at all and instead a true remembrance of what by then would be thought of as a Golden Age or some other delicious delusion. She was not surprised at all. She just gave me a warm smile as she got into the cab. I smiled back and turned to walk East.

IT WAS REALLY NOTHING

It was really nothing
No drugs
No booze
I was just happy
For no apparent
Reason

It scared him
Witless
Right there
On the street

I was aloof
He pretended
He never
Saw me

So cute
When he told me
So worried
That I looked
Insane

I told him
I was fine
Just happy
No reason

But no reason
This time
Made sense
Was fine

WE WANT TO BELIEVE IT ALL

We want to believe it all
In a drunken stupor
We nearly hear voices
Nearly stand for

Dead ideas of old
We feel
And yet dunno
Not too late
For another drink
Please hold me
Pretty one

NO ONE DESERVES TO SUFFER

Don't you fucking answer the phone on your birthday?
Aw, I just turn into doctor House and mister Hyde, so I prefer to vanish and avoid bipolar jolts that no one deserves to suffer.

NINGUEEM MERECE VER

Tu naum atende o telefone no niver naum, porra?
Ah, no meu niver eu viro uma mistura de doctor House e mister Hyde. Prefiro sumir pra evitar cenas bipolares que ningueem merece ver.

MEANING: NOTHING

OTHER POSSIBLE MEANING: LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL

HELP TO KEEP FAST FOOD FAST

WEIRD AND NICE

Students skipped school. Students danced and got drunk at a party in an apartment. Students clashed with the police. Students drove to a faraway beach to bathe naked. There were also some strange and surreal scenes. I felt a bit spaced out after the movie. It felt a bit weird to get these strange sensation just from watching a movie. It felt weird and nice at the same time. I went for a drink and some paid sex. The usual stuff.

OLHEI AS GARRAFAS

- Aqui não tem heroína.
Olhei pro lado e um desconhecido sorria pra mim. Decidi na mesma hora que ele não estava me chamando de junky. Decidi ainda que não queria ser amigo dele. Talvez fosse um cara legal. Mas eu sorri e respondi:
- Nem herói.
Voltei ao que eu fazia quando ele falou comigo. Olhei as garrafas na prateleira. Pedi uísque puro. Paguei. Virei a dose num gole. Fui embora.

YEAH I LOVED HER FACE

Yeah I loved her face
All covered in spunk
Forever in print
My photo punk

She looked so happy
In the magazine
Smiley drippy
She was my dream

AND THEN UP

Those nights I needed to get drunk to be able to talk to the sex workers. So I walked around and around with this plastic glass of booze until I saw this girl I knew. She was very friendly. She took me up her pussy and then up her ass until I came like crazy. Then we had some snug time until I said I wanted some more pussy and she was deliciously all for it. AH YES oh yes she took it like a good girl and then she let me fuck her doggy style for a lovely while until I WAS COMING LIKE AN H BOMB UP THAT HOT HOT SLIT OH BABE GIVE THIS HOT PUSSY TO ME AAAAH AAAAAH AAAAAAAAAAAH YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

BETTER HOTTER DAYS

Yeah sure we were watching some videos at some friends' place. I was too drunk and anyway she was with her dotter. Maybe some other nite I would fuck her hot holes. That nite I was only gonna be sorry for her dotter being there to stop us. Without even trying. Just being there was enough for her to fuck up our plans. So I gave up and dreamed of better hotter days. Those were the nights. Sometimes the past is like that.

EVEN FELT

Yeah I had a bad feeling about Tranny Spot One. Gave up before talking to the girls there. Same thing with Tranny Spot Two. Tranny Spot Three was empty except for one that was going away with two guys. Too late for me. But then Gal Spot One saved me. This chubby gal I was sure I knew. This time I asked her for anal sex and she was totally OK with it. Like one delicious hot ass MAN oh MAN! She was so hot I even fucked her up the pussy for a little hot hot while. Oh sweet delicious chubby gal! That night I thanked the gods for gals like that sweet chubby one. Yeah I even felt hopeful.

BIG DICKED ALIEN FAGGOT

I was illegal in Detroit. This hot American chubby white slut was working at my job. Like real hot white chubby babe with fair black hair. Office bitch written all over her face. I just waited for her one night I knew she was working late. When she came out the office she went into the ladies restroom. I knew it was empty. I went inside right after her with my hard cock out for her to see. She was faking surprise for a few seconds and then she was on her knees sucking my pole like it was her oxygen lifeline. I just enjoyed her hot lips for a few minutes. Then I told her to get on all fours and be a good silent girl. She smiled and complied. I just went on fucking her in the ass for a long long time. I told her she was a lovely lovely bitch with the best ass in town you know the usual con man babble and I did believe it while using her sweet sweet ass oh baby oh oh OH OH YES OH man that was the hottest fuck in a long long while. She told me she would suck the cocks of the cops before she would let me get sent back to my country for being an illegal alien. And I said I would help her by licking their balls as they came in her mouth and she laughed and said I was her hot big dicked alien faggot and I said this faggot wants to come again real deep in your big beautiful ass YES! YES! YES! YES! YES!

OUTSIDE ANY SIGN

In this dream my hometown was strangely empty. Almost no people out on the streets. The sky was purple all over. Neither me nor anyone else looked surprised by this impossible sky. Then a man came up to me and said he was surprised that I was back home and never called him up. He looked vaguely familiar. As I was about to ask him who he was, we heard a loud roaring sound and turned to see this gigantic wave crashing down the street. The sea was coming up! We ran so much the air felt incredibly cold in my eyes and ears and then he said it was OK for us to stop. It was dark all around. Like we had run into some desert outside any sign of the city we had just left. Are we dead?, I asked him. Who isn't?, he said. And laughed. I looked up close at a scratch in my arm and noticed I was some unbelieveably realistic cyborg. Laughing too, I looked back at my old forgotten friend and he looked exactly like me.

TOUGH ART

Dress up with clothes that make you look like an elite squad cop. Carry a pistol in the holster. Loaded. If the laws where you live prevent you from using a real pistol, use the best replica you can find. Go about your everyday life like you don't know you look like a cop. If asked about it, just say you dress like that because the clothes feel comfy. Say you don't mind looking like a cop. If people try to beat you up or shoot you, remember to obey the law.

BE HAPPY NOW

More than twenty years later I was an adult talking to one of his boys. Maybe one year from adult status boy. For sure adopted. So we sat at the snack bar of my small town teenage years. What could I do? I wasn't into young men. But I tried to say I was fine with odd behaviour. Like maybe he should be a musician if he really really wanted it. Maybe he got my hidden message that being gay was fine if it was his thing. I was trying to tell him that without being direct. I think he got it. Sure I will never know. But I feel he felt weird some way or another and I just gave him the OK to go and be as he was. I was almost as old as his stepfather friend of my family. Well I just hope he got the message that freedom was real to anyone who just did it. Like secretly telling him to believe in himself. I hope he is happy today. If I ever go to my hometown again to see how's it going I do hope I meet him by chance and find he is doing whatever consensual sex makes him happy now. Yeah I believe all good people should be happy now. There really is no other time. I guess. Who knows? Maybe I'm in for an eternal sweet surprise.

PLEASE LIVE IN FEAR AND SADNESS

Please live in fear and sadness
So we can sell you food
And sex
And call it happiness

SPIES WITHOUT FRONTIERS

We live in airports and hotels
We design your brand new fears
We play and kill and jingle bells
We are Spies Without Frontiers

BILOCATION OR SOMETHING

Suddenly I was walking down a street very early in the morning with no one in sight. As I looked at my clothes I noticed I was wearing the same shirt I had went to sleep with. Like I had stood up in a trance and put my trousers and shoes on and went sleepwalking or something. The thing was I also felt like I was lying in bed sleeping. Bilocation or something was what I thought explained this seeing and feeling two places at once. Then everything went sort of gray like some liquid smokescreen as I heard some sort of loud noise in my ears like loudspeakers bursting out of order with some strong scratching sound. That woke me up at once like maybe I was afraid of jumping into some other dimension or maybe I had just sort of falled back into my body that was really in bed all the time. I looked outside my window and it was too dark for me to really have been out there unless I had been simultaneously not only in two different places in space but also in time. I knew that street was somewhere in my city. I tried to make sense of this vivid strange dream. Was it some kind of message? I decided the gods wanted to tell me my shirt was cool enough to be worn outside in broad daylight and went back to sleep.

FUCKED ME AT LEAST TWO TIMES

Thanks for all the women who
Fucked me at least two times
They sure deserve a medal
For doing this cute swine

SPECIALLY WHATEVER

So many hot women as I walked the streets
Women I would never fuck for they
Didn't want me
Women I would never fuck for I
Didn't have the time
For fake romance
For the lies they wanted
I just wasn't into it
I wanted to write
Bad poetry or whatever
Specially whatever

SPOOKONOMICS

The good informant dies in an accident right after telling the whole shocking story. Sometimes before that.

WITHOUT NUCLEAR WEAPONS

Without nuclear weapons lots of people would have to be shot twice in the head to make sure they were dead.

SHE LOOKED LIKE A GRANNY

She looked like a granny
At the sex work street
Looking for a tranny
My luck was sweet

I found no shemale
Doing the rent
Met an older babe
And off we went

Everybody was dead
Outside that street
Afraid and sad
Without the need

EAT MEAT

If you don't eat meat cows will be useless and become extinct. Eat meat and help save the cows!

BEFORE TAKING US HOME

My kid sister was really enjoying herself in the pool. I was about fourteen and responsible for her at the club that evening instead of our parents. They had gone home. Maybe they used the chance to get some relaxed fuck going. Like they would have a couple of hours before we came home for dinner. But we were not hungry. So I let her enjoy the pool until it was closing time. And then we took the bus who went around the city before taking us home. It was late at night when we arrived. Our parents were so happy to see us alive they cried as they embraced us. I promised I would use the payphone next time.

YEAH I PRAYED

Yeah right I was a bit drunk and looking for some action with the party girls on the bar that was the right spot for hot sex workers. Went for the hotel with this hot older chubby brunette. She had a bit too much make up on. I decided I wanted her even with too much make up. Hot thick legs. I loved her thick legs right away. Her belly was big. Her tits were a bit small. She had freckles. I just went crazy. Fucked her missionary and then sideways and then came really hard up her pussy doggy style. Then we rested and chatted a bit and then she started sucking my cock once again and soon enough I was fucking her doggy style again. Such a good girl. She drove me over the edge with that hot chubby pussy. She took a shower as I got dressed and said I was going home for a quick shower and then going to bed and waking up next morning to go to the office. As I left I felt she was a bit unsure about my liking her chubby style. I really really didn't know what to say. I went home hoping she would eventually understand I really really found her hot as the bomb. Like I really prayed to the gods to let her know how happy I was that I met her that night. Like I really really hoped for her happy state of mind to be like a reality for her. Like whatever was true about her stories. Whatever. I wanted her to be happy as she could manage. Yeah I prayed to the gods she would be really really happy. Such a good girl!

HOPED FOR

Not only I waked up on my clothes. They were a bit dirty. I remembered getting a cab ride from a friend who lived some four blocks from my place. Maybe I fell on some plants along the sidewalk. I took my clothes off and the bruises on my legs said yes. I took a bath and changed the sheets. Fell asleep again. Later, I checked my pockets. Everything OK. Then I saw the pool of puke in the hall. Maybe the dirt on my clothes was dark cola drink and red meat dry puke. I noticed I had almost puked into my other pair of good shoes. Lucky me. The pair I was wearing had some bruises that looked like me scratching the pavement as I stumbled home. I looked at the answering machine. No messages at all. People were either very mad or not worried at all. I guess I looked like I could managed it when I said goodnight. Then I fell a couple of times after I was alone and striving to find my home. A little strange leaf I found in my shower later made me sure my hair had scratched some plant. I drank some cola. Vomited again. Read a book by the phone and hoped for the best. The TV was showing police and demonstrators clashing somewhere.

TOO STUPID

- What if YOU were the director? Then I bet you would care much more about this movie getting censored!
- I agree. I might even prosecute the censors. But only if I was sure I would win. This planet doesn't give a shit about censorship. Most people are just a bunch of idiots who WANT censorship of anything they strongly disagree with. It's useless to tell them it's a work of art. They believe art should be neat and full of perfect heroes. They want very cruel bad guys on the movies. Sure. But if you get too graphic, they're suddenly afraid and very much against it. I know people like you might even risk getting kicked in the head by the cops while demonstrating for freedom of speech. You are ready to get jailed and get raped in prison for the freedom of idiots who don't even understand what you are talking about. I sure hope there is a special heaven for you guys. But if they are stupid enough to force a dictatorship on me and you and even on themselves, then I don't give a fuck. Let the idiots censor what they want and let the smart ones move to a smarter country and be really free. Let their censoring stupidity fuck up our future as a country with their idiotic limits to art and science. And I pray to the gods that booze will kill me before this mess of a planet gets way too stupid for me.

MY DEAR DEAR FRIENDS

My dear dear friends
Please forgive me
In advance
For the late phone calls
Talking about
Romance
For the very rude passes
The weird trance
For I just gotta
Take a chance

THEN SHE WENT FACE DOWN

Yeah we thanked the gods for the tall shy trannies. Well at least I did. I was a bit shy also but second time around the block I just went straight up to her. Tallest one around for sure. Hi there. The bomb she was. Such a hot actress. Maybe she even meant it a bit. Yeah she was that good. I was on top of her face to face and then sideways and then she went face down for my utmost pleasure the sweetest thing long hair long legs long long orgasm for me oh girl oh such a good good girl hot girl bitch girl oh lovely lovely honey baby OH! GIRL! And then I went home to drink some more and jerk off and fall asleep smiling like a total idiot in heaven.

CHANGED

I was about twelve. This means about 1980. Downtown Rio staring at the porn mags hanging outside the news-stands. Saw this one with this woman on the cover. She was crouching and looking at me over her shoulder. I don't remember the name of the mag. But there were some extra words saying My Anus My Success And What a Success. Like she was telling us about her sex life and whatever career. I just stood there looking at the cover. Wondering if I wanted to be her or fuck her or both things one after the other over and over. Then the lights changed and I crossed the street.

HANDS

Lucky bastard me had two days off. First one I was too fucked up from the nite before and so I just took it easy and listened to some music and read some stuff. No booze. Next nite I felt it was OK to drink again. I went for a tranny but the ones I saw on the streets were not hot enough or maybe I was not drunk enough to let go of my stupid snob mind whatever fuck it I gave up and went to the woman spot but the women there were not that hot either so I went back and forth between spots for a while until I saw this white tall tranny with brown or black hair. She was as tall as a volleyball player. Man! Did she take me in her ass real nice. Face down. I came like crazy holding those sweet big hands.

THE LADY DON'T MIND

You know I think you should be sorry for that drawing.
What? Because I made her hat look like a toilet?
Yeah. That was mean.
That was funny. And a homage.
No way! That was gross.
Her weird clothes are gross, too. I like it.
Not like that.
Well that's my style. Joking can be a homage.
How can you believe that? It's awful.
But I do believe the lady don't mind.

BELIEVE IT OR WHATEVER

Posição 2004 foi arte sem curadoria nem hegemonia. Posição Dois Mil de Quatro foi uma brincadeira com o nome. Não lembro se foi o Toledo, o Fernando ou o Reynaldo quem fez a piada. Não lembra? Mas tu nem bebia naquela época, maluco! Mas voltei a beber uns quatro meses depois. E isso tudo já faz uns sete anos. Vamos mudar de assunto? Eu também achei que foi muito significativo, mas agora fica sendo mais um episódio esquecido, pelo menos por enquanto.

ANYONE CAN BE AN ARTIST

But only a few make good money

YEAH I CALL THIS LITERATURE

Maybe she needed the money really bad. When we got to the room I just felt like a cloud went suddenly over my sun. Maybe she was afraid I was gonna leave without paying because I did not fuck her. I planned to pay her even without sex. We were in the room already. She did not know I felt I owed her the money anyway. She kissed my face and ear. I decided to try and snap out of it. Washed my face. She waited for me outside the loo. She frenched me at once. I just held her tight and enjoyed our tongues. Then she said she did not usually do this kind of kiss. I said I believed her. Said I was happily surprised. Fucked her missionary. She screamed she was cuming. We rested a little. She said she wanted it doggy. Smart babe knew my thing. Boy did I love her thing doggy all the way and all the dirty words and all the spreading cheeks and all my orgasms in one big big shake. She said she was cuming all over again YES! YES! OH! YES! YES! OH! YES! YES! OH! YES! YES! OH! YEAAAAAAAAH! YEAAAH! YEAAAH! YEAAAH! OH! YEAAH! YEAAH! YEAAH! OH! YEAH! YEAH! OH! YEAH! OH! OH! OH! YEAH! OH! YEAH! OH! YEAH! OH! YEAH!

HERE WAS ALL

My world was all ice and crystal. I sat and watched TV like a zombie. Cannot remember the name of the movie. Some japanese animation where everything looked like glass or ice. Colorful. Noble men and women in a world of crystal. I had never seen snow. Never a japanese girl. I was maybe seven and in love forever with a princess that shone like crystals. I cannot remember her face very well. Just the feeling in my heart when she smiled. I wanted to be made of ice and crystal. I wanted to be near her. The film was over. My life was over. This planet here was all I had. It would have to do.

LIKE THE FUCK I CARED

The smell took me back to when I was a kid. It smelled just like my favorite breakfast cereal. Mostly like sugar. Then I jumped into my young man years. Asking my former wife about an old friend of hers. She told me she had died years ago. Her cancer had come back in full fatal force. We were both quite surprised that I had completely misplaced that info inside my head. Then I was back to being a bit too old for lots of things but giving them a go anyway like the fuck I cared what people believed.

SHE WANTED IT DOGGY

Yeah I was a little bit too drunk and so I decided to fuck some woman instead. This hot chubby black babe spot me at once and I was sort of glad because I knew she was hot enough. I sucked on her big tits for a lovely while. Then I put my rubber on and fucked her missionary for a hot long time. Long for me at least. Then she said she wanted it doggy style. Good girl remembered my thing. I just went crazy with her on all fours and after a few minutes I was screaming with pleasure inside that lovely tight black box oh baby yes yes oh yes yes yes take me all the way YES! YEAH! YEAH! YEAH! YEAH! YES! YES! Hmmm. Ah. Lovely girl. Worth the while and the cash.

TO FEEL GOOD

First one was this whitey tranny I knew and boy was she hot hot hot. I came like crazy fucking her as she lay face down such a sexy white babe with blond hair. Then I went for another blond that was chubbier but it was not the hot thing no so I gave up. Next one was a brown skinned tranny. Older and hotter to the eye. In real life not so hot but hot enough for me to cum up her ass and thank her maybe she would rather fuck my ass yeah maybe some other time her dick looked small enough to feel good.

NONE OF US

She was trouble. Friends from college told me she was a liar. I went for a walk with her after class. Asked her a lot for a kiss. She let me kiss her. It was good for me. She did not look very excited. We talked some more. I went home. Next day my friends told me she said I had forced her to kiss me. I told them it was a lie. They could have said they had warned me about her. But they just stood there looking like they believed me. Fine. Then she said she was coming to my place to read the tarot for me and I was stupid enough to say OK. Maybe she was expecting me to pounce on her. I just sat there waiting for her to tell me my future. She gave some excuse about energy and left without reading my future. Then one day we were on the phone and she said she wanted to get a man to fuck us both. Said she would love to see me getting fucked in the ass by another guy. We were having a laugh. Then she said that maybe she would like a good spanking. I said I would do it for her. I grabbed a nearby cushion and hit it hard and asked her over the phone if she could hear it and imagine it and would she really like a good spanking. She laughed nervously and said something like she was only joking and we never talked again. She is probably still pretty hot after all these years. I am glad we never did it. It would mean trouble. None of us had heard about safewords.

ABSURDLY LONG

My spaceship went down smoothly. He was waiting outside their hub. We had agreed beforehand that he was gonna fuck me before I fucked his wife. He was as big as he had told me. Rocking my ass real good. I took it doggy and screamed with pleasure. He was that hot up my ass. Then his wife came into the chamber. Big ass babe just my thing she was. Masochistic honey I knew. I told her to get naked and get on all fours like a good girl. She did as I told her. He was watching and wanking. I grabbed her like the bitch I was telling her she was and gave it to her up the ass in just one move like at once like just one hard move. She gasped with pleasure. Maybe pain. She knew I did not care and said it made her hotter. So I fucked her ass for a good good absurdly long long time like fuck it I don't care if your ass is bleeding no I AM gonna use you tonight and I WILL cum up your ass all the way in like I want like I like it like I love it like I need it OH YOU BITCH! YOU SLUT! I LOVE YOUR ASS! I LOVE YOU! YE-AH! AAAAAAAAAAH!

COLD AND FRIENDLY

Sure I was drunk but I believe. The street was empty when she showed up around the corner. Her skin was so white it was a bit green. Her hand was pretty hot when she held mine and said she was from very far away and wanted to talk to me. I asked her for a nearby booze joint. Then I took her to a hotel. Her dick was as big as my arm. The head was shining like a lantern. She told me it was OK. She would not hurt me. She put on a black condom and told me she was gonna fuck me doggy style like I never had it before. She was right. It didn't feel too big. It felt wonderful. I came like crazy. We stared at the ceiling for a while. She said that was part of a very important experiment for her planet. I asked her where was her flying saucer. She said it was sort of invisible. Then she kissed me hard and long and went out the window and vanished into thin air. The stars looked cold and friendly.

NEXT TIME

First tranny was like I was too drunk to get it up so I gave up here's your cash thank you. Second tranny was a bore here's your cash bye bye. Third one was a woman but when I tried to pay her in advance I noticed I did not have the money I said I would give her. I told her I was sorry I was so drunk I did not notice my money was gone I tried to call it off but she was nice and took my dick up her pussy for less than half her price and boy was I happy fucking that pussy missionary then sideways then coming real hard up her doggy style oh such a good girl she was really quite probably thirty or something just the right girl to make my drunken self relax and feel totally at home. Thank you girl I hope next time I will do you in the ass.

SOON ENOUGH

The park was empty. We were three boys about twelve. Quite probably virgins. That was normal around 1979. Or so I thought. But we thought about fucking girls all the time. Or so did I. So we were talking about sex and this guy was describing the sounds women were supposed to make when getting fucked by a guy. He sounded so real I joked about his masculinity. But he was cool and explained he was just acting. I said nothing. He still sounded a bit gay. As he always did. I wonder where he is now. Is he bi? I sure am! Not sure if I look like one. And not sure how the hell is a bi guy supposed to look. Maybe bi guys come in all sort of different styles? Maybe the way they come and go are their business? Nah! Surely human beings cannot be that free? Are you really stupid enough not to notice I am being ironic here? Surely you know people may look the same but they really are different from each other except for the fact that they all want pleasure? Don't worry if you don't understand. This truth will hit you in the face soon enough.

NO EXPLANATIONS

We will look dead
Someday
Even though
We do believe
We are immortal
In other
Dimensions

So do your thing
Be free
Be glad
No explanations

DISBELIEVE

Nineteen years down the road she would be a beautiful young woman with a nice young boyfriend and series of jobs that payed her bills and maybe even were a bit of fun. But at that moment she was this little girl telling me about a schoolboy she knew that went deaf because of some sickness. Her mother was talking to my wife just a couple of steps away but the little girl was telling me and only me the sad story. She did not raise her voice. It was almost a whisper. She looked at me like she also meant to say that she knew life was a violent and meaningless time before we die. But she said this just by looking into my eyes. I was speechless for one second. Then I stared at the floor. Then her mother said something that brought us into their conversation. Their conversation was a place where life could feel lighter if you laughed about yourself. She was so young I hope she does not remember the boy unless there is something she can do about it. Which I doubt. I hope she never reads this story. I am truly sorry I cannot erase it. I wish I knew why. But only if there was something I could do about it. Which I strongly disbelieve.

LEFT WITHOUT

I had decided I was going to try fucking a plastic doll. I saw this sex shop. The only doll I saw there was not inflatable. It was made of rubber or something. Really only a torso and a head with long black hair and chinese eyes looking over the shoulder like you were fucking her from behind. Trouble was she was so small it looked like she was only ten. I was a bit shocked. But then at least they were not selling real children as sex slaves. I left without buying anything.

THE GUY

The guy is a liar
Believe the eye
He looks a friar
To make you
Sigh

SAFER

Safer fucking sluts
Who use condoms
No ifs just butts
True romcoms

MAIS SEGURO

Mais seguro comendo puta
Que sempre usa camisinha
Uma verdade absoluta
Fica de quatro lindinha

THE BI HIM

She was sweet alt rock honey. He was a bit worried about her not knowing he was bi and what if she was OK but not sexy about it like she was mistaking him for het. He decided to e-mail her for it was a new cool thing and so he could invite her to the Gay Pride Parade without saying it over the phone. Hoping she would get it and find the bi him really cute and hot. He kept checking to see if she wrote back at all.

NO CONDITION

She said your ass is mine
It is no condition
You will feel fine
Assume the position

MUCAMA

Eu queru amarrar essa muler
De brussus na cama
Vo usar gostosu
Minha amada mucama

DE NOVO

Vou mergulhar sem pensar
De novo
No desconhecido
Apostar no amor
Acreditar no sentido

NOT WANT SALVATION

This planet does not want salvation
This planet only wants big big fun
In love and war I am with God
And God is with the bigger gun

TOUGH HOT

The thing was I was so out of it all the time that I had to be warned about the show by some friend otherwise I would just miss it and stay home writing stuff for no reason and without any real future for the words aw fuck it the good thing was I got the message and showed up for the show and boy was it worth it they were rocking out just fine in a haze of reverb or whatever anyway it was great fun I was drinking a bit of cola to shut off the loads of whisky I had before the place opened. And then I was rocking out to their instrumental jam in nineteen parts or whatever the rock buzz was great and then I went to get some pay me black pussy and boy did she take it doggy and make me feel like I was back where I came from the sweet thing I bought her cigarettes and some beer afterwards she was so sweet but we met a friend of hers that was really too out of it even for the red light crowd so I just said thank you goodbye and went away before she said something so crazy it started a fight or something really I wished my black pussycat was able to contain her main girl for she was a hot blond very out of her mind and I hope there was no trouble for the cops as always with the red light people the cops were really just a couple of steps away and I wanted no trouble for neither of them beauties. I went home and passed out jerking off while thinking of them tough hot babes.

HOPING THE BEST

He stopped to look at the tranny ads glued to a payphone. One of them had a Star of David shape covering her beautiful ass. He wondered if she was jewish and what did her cock looked like. He wondered about this short movie directed by a friend that he had been invited to play extra in for free just to have some fun and give some help. He felt much too tired to do anything but go home and read a little before falling asleep and waking up the next morning hoping the best for all and returning to the office. In his dream they were cowboys crossing a river. Hostile indians attacked suddenly and he reached for his rifle. He wondered for a split second if they would all die there trying to reach the other side.

NO STAR

He saw this big backstreet graffito that said in capital letters that LIFE IS AN ACCIDENT. Its visual style reminded him of another one he'd seen Downtown that said FUCK NORMALITY. So maybe the guy was an atheist or an agnostic. He felt a little happier for this public display of freedom of speech not yet under attack. Then he went to eat a burger and watch some quite probably American movie. And next day was Monday and back to the office. Then it was one or two Sundays later and he saw this sex worker ad glued to a payphone and there was no star or whatever covering the exposed genitals of the bent over woman like the other ones. He smiled to himself.

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LIKE CRAZY EVERY TIME

Yeah sure being twelve was very pure and innocent. Yeah right. Going on thirteen just before John was shot dead when arriving at the Dakota. Say what? All the guys I played soccer with were fourteen at the most. Army brats watching the Eighties get born in Rio. I truly believed that no girl would actually put a dick in her mouth. OK maybe whores did it. I was a virgin at twelve how could I know? I read Belgian and Spanish comics at the library and American cowboy comics. This boy I knew said he knew I wanted to suck his cock really bad but the truth is he was some fifteen years too early to get head from me. This other one looked at me and said he knew I jerked off too and didn't even wait for my reply for off he was about how it was something that got so hot you couldn't hold back no more and I just smiled and said Yeah because I knew what he was talking about I was going on thirteen and jerking off like crazy every time I got the chance to do it for the truth was it felt awesome and also there were no girls wanted to fuck me and I had no idea what I was missing being a virgin and all so I just had lots of fun.

PUNCH THE ROBBER

HAPPILY

Someone warned me that her mouth caused cocks to shrink. I paid no mind. Her ass was hot and her blowjobs were the bomb and back then no het girl that liked to eat cum thought twice about eating it. I was not working because I had an allowance from my parents and didn't need to work at any shitty job and every single one I had tried was crap so I just took it easy with short cash but a cock that was long enough to impress some girls. It was fine with her for some time until I had to notice that my dick was indeed getting smaller like she was sucking on a popsicle. But it felt so good I just couldn't stop. Eventually it got so small it was like a clit with a hole for the piss to come out. And a weird rash underneath my clit made me scratch the area so hard that I bled like hell and I wanted to go to the hospital but she said no way no no she was gonna kiss it and fix it and she was specially hot that night and I passed out and woke up the next day with a pussy and my weird clit that pissed and shot cum. She started fingering my pussy and it was great but I missed fucking her ass. We eventually had a bad argument one day and I waited for her to fall asleep dead drunk and tied her up and gagged and strangled her. When her eyes stopped giving out any sign of life I vomited on them. She was dead and dirty and I was a woman on the run. I used my old clothes to look like a man. Cut my hair short and only travelled on foot late at night. During the days I hid inside garbage dumps. I went into a bigger city and used the money I stole from her to change my face and name. Before that I had sucked lots of cock to survive as a street citizen with no name, waiting for her unexplained murder to get out of the news. Some of them wanted to fuck my ass. But mostly they wanted to cum in my mouth and that somehow made my cock grow back to its former shape and size. So I guess she did was into some bad bad magic shit. The pussy was still there. One doctor I saw about it said I could not get pregnant because I was a little more man than woman. He wanted me to be his secret lover. He was hot to fuck and get fucked. I said OK but he would had to vasectomize me because I was going to be free to screw some girls on the side. He said OK and ate my cum and told me he would suck my dick happily ever after.

SKINHEAD BLOWJOB

She was a communist chubby hot gal. She gave good head. I wanted to cum up her ass. I just got half my dick up her butt. She was moaning that it just wouldn't go inside. But I just loved her halfway assfuck. Her ass was the tighest one I knew back then. I loved her. Maybe I was foolish enough go tell her so. I just came really hard up her ass. That was love enough for me back in those days.

SHAKE YOUR COPIES FROM LEFT TO RIGHT

SOME KIND OF HEAVEN

Sure I loved a boozehead. I was seventeen and she was twenty-five or something. We met because she fell over on the sidewalk and I helped her up and was she alright? We ended up getting a drink. Cola for me and vodka for her. She was studying Psychology and drinking all day long every single day. Said she did not remember anything at all before she was six or seven. I was just a lucky bastard who had escaped compulsory military service. I loved her instantly. Maybe the planet was gonna get fried when the computers went crazy and fired all the nuclear missiles at once. But I was in love and I was gonna walk all over town listening to anything she said. I still had some days off before going back to where I lived. So the next day in town was the same as the day I met her. She drank one vodka at each bar. She knew all the bars and we walked all over town. I was staying with my aunt. I asked her over. There was nobody home but I was not planning to pounce on her or anything and I assured her so. She said OK. Eventually she figured I was a real shy guy so she just kissed me out of the blue. That was my first kiss, I think. There was this other one one year before, but I was so drunk I think I might have dreamed it. And the girl who supposedly kissed me probably didn't want me to get too emotional about it so she told me I was dreaming. So OK that was my first kiss that I clearly remember. Anyway. We kissed and embraced. There was no place where we could fuck and we didn't mind much as long as I had cola and she had vodka. I for sure had no idea what I was missing. I would not find out with her. We exchanged some letters. I came back on my next vacation. I did believe she was moving to my town. She told me it was not so as she put me into the cab that would take me to the bus station. Once again practical matters were doing a practical joke on me. I was crying as she held me one last time. That was years ago and she is probably dead if she went on drinking the way she did. I just hope there is some kind of heaven for the ones who drank so much they can hardly remember ever being kids.

28 DAYS IN THE SHIT

I quit the library job and went looking for a job in a bookstore. I used a friend's printer to make copies of my CV and went to all the bookstores I knew. Mostly the people there looked like they didn't give a fuck about me wanting to work there. I guess it was because I was white and looked like I just had lunch. They wanted the starved ones that were easier to exploit. Then this bookstore phoned me. The owner was a beautiful jewish woman. Except she looked a bit strung out and worried. I was an idiot but I knew it was a stupid idea to try and fuck my boss. And this one was too stressed and didn't look like she found me hot at all. But the money was good enough. In a couple of days I found out that everybody who worked there was tired of her stressed up manners. Like we thought she should fuck off and sell the bookstore instead of getting so worked up about meaningless details. After 28 days I found out she was expecting me to do some work that I was idiot enough not to have foreseen. I was already fed up with verbal abuse. I told her I was not coming back the next day. She said I could not do that right when this book fair or something was about to happen. I could not believe how out of touch with reality her relatives and business advisers had let her become. So I explained to her that I was not asking for her permission to quit my job but actually informing her that I was not working for her anymore. I was sorry for about 90 percent of the people who worked there. They were nice to me and just could not quit. They needed the money really bad. I knew my parents were not going to let me starve. I might go crazy without money to buy the books I craved, but I would not starve. Another madman with enough grub to eat? I figured I would have to go back to the library and ask for another chance. But that was tomorrow. Today I was just gonna go home and stare at the ceiling while some noisy rock blasted out of the stereo. The sun felt cold next morning. But the ceiling looked peaceful that night.

WAKE THE FUCK UP

Suddenly I knew I loved her. I wanted to tell her right away. I had no car. I walked for some forty minutes and worried what would she say but my fear was all wrong. Nobody home. Next morning her friend told me she had tried to kill herself. She slashed her wrists but called her on the phone at once. The paramedics were fast enough. She washed the blood from her floor. I went to see her. She looked kinda proud she tried to die. I tried to say funny stuff to cheer her up. Told her I loved her. She said she didn't love me. Like she was telling me the sky is not green but actually blue. Like wake the fuck up boy I don't love you. But very sober and cold the way she told me. I said I would never have the guts to cut my veins open like that. She informed me that I was a coward. That was more than twenty years ago. I hope she is alive and happy somehow somewhere. But I can almost hear her telling me no she killed herself good next time. Sometimes I remember her laughing that night everybody got stoned at her place. I figure maybe I was one of the lucky few who saw one of her happy moments.

LUTO

FUCK YOUR NAZI GOD

I figured I was just gonna get deep into this new fat babe magazine thing. Who cared about any other communication shit? Not me. People were just a bunch of nice idiots just like me or even worse so fuck it I said to myself. There was even some other people who were actually doing their best to fuck us over with an innocent smiling mask on their faces. And ready to get you seriously fucked and maybe even killed if you said something. Since I was a drunken coward like anybody else I just kept writing my stuff that nobody read and drinking my booze and wanking and that was about it. Sometimes I felt a little hope like when I found out about these chubby white babes showing their stuff in a magazine that was totally new to me. I was unsure about giving money to the needy for they might get a job and slave themselves to death like the rest of us idiots and I wasn't really sure that being another robot was a good idea for them and I certainly did not want to use sex to make other robots oh no it really did seem like a stupid idea like this world here was really lots of fun sometimes but mostly a sick machine that killed us robots to get bigger so what the fuck were we doing like yeah I knew that was probably the only life we had but still I could not quite totally embrace this useless weird trip really like when in doubt I really did not want to get anybody inside this weird mess of an universe like I felt nobody deserved such an insane life and then somehow I felt that God was real but it didn't really change anything like I was still probably doing some harm to my liver for I knew that my belief did not prove that God did exist and so I was back to my bed wanking in a drunken stupor for I felt hopeless really like there was no point in believing that love would come around again for me or anyone oh no I was pretty sure it was pure chance and so I descended into shapeless lukewarm sleep hoping once more that tomorrow was gonna be my lucky day whatever the fuck that was supposed to mean.

really did

She knew I had a fever because of the cold. She noticed my dick was kinda limp and went for it with such a warm delicious mouth. Those were the days we foolishly believed that AIDS was 99 percent a gay men problem not ours. She sat on my dick so hot I was in Heaven. I didn't even know if we were listening to some sexy music. Probably not, as we were well into this kinda goth wave that we thought was called dark. Our movement was quite dead from the start and we probably wanted it that way. We lost contact. One day I wondered if she had killed herself. Then it dawned on me that I had lost her phone number and could not do anything about it whatever was the case. I did not believe in god but prayed for her anyway. I really did want her to have a wonderful life.

Os peito e' bom e eu gosto

Os peito e' bom e eu gosto. That was what he said. I had to agree. Even though I really was into ass myself. I was like fourteen and halfway into madness for some shorthair blondes with such hot asses really. Yeah big tits made me hot. But I really wanked thinking about asses. Which was against the military dictatorship. So I was a political criminal without even trying. But I was also a lucky bastard for the military dictatorship was fading away. No need to breed new soldiers to be OK with The Law. Only trouble was not a single gal I knew wanted to give me her ass or even her pussy or even a kiss. But I was a virgin and did not really know what I was missing and I just listened to some old sixties rock'n'roll and wanked before sleeping and it was alright!

looking forward

He wrote down my phone. I kissed him in the halfway darkness thing that was going on. But next day in a place with proper lighting he seemed unsure. Maybe he really did have to study. I was an idiot and said OK I was going home anyway to get some sleep for I needed to be up early for work the next day. And it was true. Maybe I should have lied? Maybe we were lucky not to get into each other. I mean really. Really we will never know and it's OK. That was really how it was. That was the best we could do for each other. Small talk over dinner. Sad poor diplomatic talk. I was happy to go home and wank. I went to sleep looking forward to my next love and/or sex interest. It felt right to do so.

That night with two trannies

The blond one was a mistake. Nice dick and ass but her stance just put me off so I paid her and left and chat up this tall brunette and went with her and it was just the bomb I gave her head and then I fucked her ass and it was just the hottest ass in a long time she just laughed in disbelief but I told her I screamed I just blurted out she was the best ever which was probably not true but she really was the hottest thing that night for sure oh God oh Lord oh baby YES! YES! YEEAAH!

other moving

I wasn't drunk. Too early. I went into this commercial building. To the restroom. Went inside a cubicle. The light was fucked up. It was a steady strobe. I remembered this movie I read about with no images, just black and white screencards blinking at various speeds of what looked like a rectangular strobe. How long was it? twenty minutes or so? Anyway, I never had the chance to see it and here I was. The walls were white inside the cubicle. I just sit down and stared for some ten or fifteen minutes. I had read about the images that people saw where there was actually nothing but a strobe. I knew for sure there was nothing there in the cubicle wall. But they came to me. Blurred gray shadows. Like scenes out of focus. An oval rotating and changing shape from square to circle. A group of bubbles that grew and shrunk without exploding. People walking across the field of vision. Just a couple of gray faceless human shadows. Then a crowded street of people passing by in both directions. Like I was standing on the sidewalk watching them walk by in slow motion. A tree without any leaves in a field white with snow. Other moving geometric shapes I could not understand. Then back to the changing rotating oval. I got out and washed my face. Looked in the mirror.

almost dying

My car was destroyed but I was fine so I drank another fiery malt shot and went inside this rich frat boy party I was invited to by mistake yeah I was gonna fuck them bitches like I was rich so sorry I knew they were only doing their survival thing but I was doing my mental health survival thing so I just used this hot blond for oral sex and boy did she suck me off I was like totally spaced out like melting and hardening and then exploding all the way into her burning tongue OH BABY YEAAAH! Everything went blackish spacey gray starry vision blanket all over. Only my lungs felt real. How I wished her well. Dumb hope quite possibly. Not that I knew what was going on. Not that I was sure either way. So I just went home without knowing shit about the present. Well OK I knew something about stupid nazi idiots. They were easy prey for that stupid nazi idea of hating jews because it was too dangerous to hate all cruel capitalists of ANY religion. The jews were safe to hate because they were like less than one percent so you would not get destroyed for hating all the sadistic rich no just the jews. Everything would stay the same but hating the jews would give them the illusion of building a fair society when the truth was they were still getting fucked but felt good because hating jews and fags and other different ones and getting money from the idiot totalitarian state made them forget about how fucked they were getting yeah them idiots just needed beer and someone to hate and all was well with the raw deal they were getting so I just gave up trying to save stupid humans and gave up trying to save myself what was the point if we were that much stupid collectively who gave a fuck if idiots like us destroyed ourselves not me really oh no man really I mean maybe we will get smarter and be more tolerant but it looks like we are just gonna fuck up and kill this planet and ourselves along it so I just say you guys and gals better enjoy yourselves while you can for things will probably go deadly weird all over the planet soon enough so get your kicks now don't let nobody tell you how! Trust your guts! Hire some male sluts! Or whatever other kind of slut gives you the hots! That's what I was saying. It had been a beautiful day. I was kinda happy then inside my hopeless dream. Almost dying to wake up.

lovely chain

I was getting a bit tired of fucking pussy when I really wanted ass. But no luck once again. The trannies on the street were not hot enough. So I went for the women spot to pay more and get pussy oh well it was fine maybe some other time I was gonna get lucky again and see some of those hot trannies where the fuck were they maybe in Europe making some real money and who was I to blame them they needed cash and maybe Rio was not giving them enough and they needed to make some real money while they were young for nobody gave a fuck about them trannies when they got too old to work the streets not even the government who was supposed to care to the poor and certainly not them religious bastards with all their sick fuck sex hating crap they were so happy to tell anybody about if one was unlucky enough to get caught by one of those nazi god lovers I wanted to tell them bastards who stopped me on the street to tell me about Jesus to shut the fuck up and stop giving me this outdated crap and like tell them they were stupid slaves if they did not realise that our spirituality was bound to evolve into something more humanistic and ecumenic and that if Jesus were to come back that very day he would've told them to think for themselves and stop being pushed around like morons by egomaniac religious leaders who were not into any real progressive and liberating vision of religion but just using them for their own ends I could not believe how stupid they were to follow them and yet I knew it was no use or maybe I didn't know for sure it was useless to try but I just gave up very early on 'cause this stupid fanatic trip they were in looked too thick to be penetrated by common sense like they looked like those madmen that you just gave up trying to reason with I just gave up and decided I was gonna get some ass or pussy to fuck while I was drunk because I was not even sure there was a god and humanity seemed so stupid I just gave up and there I was and I saw this chubby black woman and it went really good and her pussy was awesome like the two or three times I had done her before but then I went back to the women spot for some more I just wanted some more pussy and then I saw this other black chubby woman that wore glasses and oh boy did I have fun up that tight nerdy black pussy she was real hot and I went home thinking next time it would be even better for this one seemed a bit like not totally relaxed like maybe my dick was a bit too big she said it was a big surprise and she tried her best and I sure had fun but I figured next time I would choose a very tall one maybe I was gonna get lucky and she would be OK with my size maybe even up her ass maybe even I would find a hot tranny with the sweetest ass ever I jerked off before falling into this wonderful dream of the sweetest perfect shemale loving to take me all the way inside her so hot and snug and like being back home after such a long time I was weeping with happiness as I moaned the orgasm right out of my lungs like the song that created me and took me from the void into that lovely chain of events that led me to that ecstatic moment.

out of

I gave up pretending to be waiting for a bus. I noticed this blond tranny with legs a little thicker than the others. This made me hot. Probably made her diet. Go figure. Very small and delicious tits. Snug hot ass. After I came screaming inside her hot behind we just lay there for a little while. I told her she was hot. She said she was gonna be even hotter after her diet. I told her I was OK with her body as it was but go ahead and diet if you like. I hoped she believed me for I was telling the truth. She wanted to look like those models who looked like numbed out speed freaks and who was I to tell her otherwise I figured so I didn't say anything else and prayed silently that her ass stayed big and hot. She started asking me did you see this new soap opera and I said no not yet even though I was probably never even gonna try it. Televison for me was just for late night movies. The rest was not amusing enough. But I knew some characters from the ads and she just started doing this impression of one of the women in the soap and she was funny we laughed as small kids that are instant friends on their first day in school just because they watch the same cartoons and then she told me about some diet tips she got from this TV show. And then she went back to the impression. Were she not a tranny she could be on TV but I tried not to think about how unfair this was for society was like that and wasn't going to change that fast so it was no use getting depressed about stupid prejudice that would be slow to vanish so I just laughed with her and silently thanked the gods for that exclusive show I would not see on TV and then it was time to go and back home I took a shower and my phone did not ring and I was too drunk to care I just wanked and passed out and didn't die in my sleep and woke up next morning not really sure if I was glad to be alive for another day but what the fuck I had no better idea than to get out of bed and see.

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I stuck my dick up some pussy to celebrate gay pride

I stuck my dick up some pussy to celebrate gay pride. OK, I really wanted to fuck some tranny ass in the name of gay pride. But the ones I saw on the street were not really my dish. I went to the women spot. Got this short chubby black woman. Sucked her tits. Fucked her doggy for some long minutes. Could smell her opened pussy as I fucked her and loved the smell.

Really gonna

No trannies hot enough in sight so I walked on and the radio somewhere told me some big shot terrorist was killed and I kept on my drunken haze walking to the woman spot thinking it was fine to kill the terrorist but no way it was gonna stop terrorism if they didn't do something about poverty you know everybody knew that being hungry was the best way for some poor idiot to get these stupid crime or terrorism ideas but I didn't believe any party in the whole planet cared enough to really do something about it so that was it I was not going to get too worried about a planet full of idiots who were no wiser than me you had to impress me as quite wise to get me interested in anything except getting boozed up and there was no one I knew so I decided there again one more time again to give up on doing something big to help the planet be a better place really let us destroy ourselves if we are dumb enough to let it happen and so there I was in a bar that had some gals that surely were whores and I decided I was so drunk I needed to take a shit but the restroom was too dirty even for my drunken stupor standards so I went around the block for some cheaper tequila and tried my luck and the restroom there was a lot cleaner lucky bastard was I and then I went back around the block and decided for this short slim black woman she said she was thirty or something and had three kids and that her tits were no longer beautiful but I found her floppy empty little bags hot as an A bomb with those stiff little nipples my dick went hard as rock while I sucked on them and I fucked her pussy in every position as long as I was on top for it felt so good to pretend I was using her and not us using each other in our different ways who cared I sure didn't I thought she talked a little bit too much as she pretended she was having a fucking great time but that didn't stop me from coming like crazy so thank you beautiful I said and went back to the bar and it was raining a little bit and I was looking for some fatter and even hotter woman and eventually I chat up this chubby black one who was maybe also thirty I didn't ask I was so mesmerized by her fat arms and legs and butt and tits that felt like home to my mouth I just went completely dazed and fucked her two times only pausing to wash my dick a little and get some head and get another condom and I held her fat little hot black body next to mine and smelled her hair and told her how hot she made me feel she laughed and looked amused and gave me some more hot strong delicious head in order to get me up again she said she wanted some more but I was already too tired I just gave her the money and thanked her for a great time and she said she had noticed me looking at her ass and said next time she would let me do her ass too and I said OK it sounded great and I went home thinking that maybe she was even really gonna do it and I took a shower and read some books for a while and then jerked off into a warm pool of sleep.

Not drunk enough maybe anyway I went to tranny spot number one but found not one hot one too bad tranny spot number two was the same aw fuck bad luck that night so I went to tranny spot number three and the one that talked to me sounded like trouble or something whatever I told her I was gonna take another walk around the block and then this lady looked at me like she knew me and said hey beautiful and I asked her and she told me we had payed sex before and when she told me her name I remembered yes the hot fortysomething lady I had eaten out and pussyfucked a long time maybe oh yes please let us go to some private place now and boy did I lick that pussy and did she suck my dick and did I fuck that hot cunt for like over an hour in all the main positions and I eventually came like crazy fucking her doggy style oh the white ass with the hot tan marks like I said you sure get some sunshine you delicious hot fortysomething white mama you be a good girl and give it to me yeah let my dick slide all the way in you bitch you lovely babe you oh my god I'm coming YeaaaaaaaaaaAh!

Another welcome first

He stops from time to time to look at the sex work photocopy ads glued to the pay phones in Downtown Rio. One actually shows the hard cock of a shemale. The photo is small but it looks uncensored. He thinks it's good news that the ads are more explicit. He even sees one with a man in leather shorts. That is another welcome first. Men doing sex work ads on pay phones. Nice. He thinks about an artist friend that wanted to do some work using sex work ads as a theme. Next morning on the bus to his office he sees a huge graffito in capital letters saying FUCK NORMALITY. He figures someone was feeling oppressed by some majority and decided to sort of shout back in disapproval. He wonders if the majority of cariocas that don't speak english will get it anyway. Maybe using a translator online. He looks up and wonders if the weather will stay fine and dry until he gets back home tonight.

You take

I hated holidays. But there was no reason. Really. The working girls were out like any other night. OK. Not all. But some of them. I gulped down what I decided was to be my last shot. Really. Hard liquor was something to be wary of. I did believe so. I looked at this chubby black babe. Was not sure if she was the same one I went with the week before. Then she looked at me and smiled. I decided it was her and came closer. She was teasing me about the fact that she gave me her phone and I never called. I said we should go to some place with air conditioning. So we went to a nearby hotel. We took a shower. I sucked on her big delicious black tits until my dick was hard as rock. Then I fucked her old style and then sideways and then doggy I was so crazy I just kept calling her a beautiful sweet dirty little good black girl oh sweetie and yes oh yes I am gonna use this pussy all the way in tonite yes and then I was shaking all over while fucking her doggy and I just went a little blank for a second or two and she was sweet and still and I took it out before it went too soft inside the condom and we talked a bit as she showered again and did her make up and the porn was still going on the TV set and I don't know why we ended up talking about weird clients and she said that a friend of hers met a guy who not only wanted her fist up his ass but also wanted her to find some five women to fist fuck him over and over and that was too much for her friend and I said I understood her even though I was OK with people having fetishes but not with me maybe oh well I knew there was no credit in telling her about some fetish stuff I did with some girls who really really wanted me to and anyway she asked me if I liked to be finger fucked by girls and I said I did not mind but was not crazy about it and of course I did not tell her that I was fucked in the ass a few times by guys and trannies because I figured it was only going to get her worried for no reason you know I enjoyed it but it was like 99 0/0 of the time I was on top so I guessed I was macho enough for her anyway I got her phone written down for the next time I came to town and it was bye bye honey you take care pretty one!

Will kill all life

- You think you know the System but the fact is that the System knows you. Every single internet user is a spy on himself. Every single word you type into a computer, even without publishing it, is a piece of info about yourself that you are giving to the System. It just waits and sees if it needs to attack you and if so when and how. As for the people offline, there are cameras to watch them. Make no mistake. The System is a stupid machine that sooner or later will kill all life, just like Nature. The System is actually Nature with some more tools and weapons to kill life forms after using them to grow stronger.
- Yes! It feels stronger! Give it to me harder!

Where drugs and prostitution and free love are all legal

- You think New Age is an easy way but different masters from other dimensions say different things and it is hard to study it all and find out what does apply to our dimension.
- You show me some genocide survivor that saw the light and I will want to hear the story and then I will say that New Age is tough and down to earth, you hear me? In fact, forget about it. Even if you get me transcript of some message from a dead mass murderer who went straight to Heaven and was praised along the meek and the pacifists, I will probably think I'd love it to be true that every single thing is forgiven, but something tells me we could be very wrong and this life may well be all we have. What a wonderful surprise when I die and find out that I am actually immortal and Heaven is the place where drugs and prostitution and free love are all legal and credit cards are limit free and never send you any bills. I have no hurry to check if the afterlife exists.
- Shut up and come!

Anytime for sure

Maybe she was just old. Maybe she was a little sick. Probably both but the fuck I cared. She was a blond tranny up for taking it in the ass and that was just what my cock wanted. She said let's use condoms for oral I mean safer is better and I said yeah and we did a hot rubber 69 thing for a while and then I fucked her ass until I was screaming with joy yeah that was a hot weird fuck and I loved it. But I walked the streets wanting some more and then I found this other blond tranny that went 69 with me without any condom so whatever fuck it and then I was on top of her with my rubber dressed dick going all the way in and oh girl was she good to me I just came like a nuclear bomb inside her ass and she was so sweet afterwards that I am really sorry I should have asked for her phone for she sure was a really nice one that knows how to take it in the ass real good and that is a bit rare, really what can I say I don't mind the drones and actually have fun with them but I really really prefer the happy whore ones for sure anytime.

Boy did I

Very drunk and looking for a tranny. This one I knew before. But she was not very much into it this time around so I just came and went but was not really really satisfied so I went to the woman sex worker place. Met this blonde chubby woman who treated me right but was not the thing either. I don't know what went wrong. Really. I told her I was fine and it was true what I said but I wanted something else and boy did I find it. I saw this black woman and she was even fatter and I said to myself in my brain that I didn't even care if she was not up for anal sex for I was just crazy to get inside that fat black pussy and boy did I have fun oh MAN!

One time in a thousand

We met downtown after work. Hey! Long time no see! Had a couple of beers. Went to look for a gay-friendly hotel. I usually came without ejaculating. Was OK with it. So was he. Fucked that delicious hairy ass until I was sighing so hard he asked me did you cum? I said I had come but probably didn't shoot. We took a look and decided to change the condom just to be on the safe side. He went to jerk off in front of the toilet. I fucked his ass again until he shot his load. We showered. We went our separate ways. I decided I wanted some more ass. Found this blonde tranny. She was a bit chubby and a hot sixty-nine head. Then I quit the 69 and fucked her ass face down. Kissing her shoulders and the nape of her neck and slowly going nuts and waiting for the usual dry shaking orgasmic fit when suddenly I was feeling even happier like wait a minute what and then I was screaming and this gooey shockwave was jumping out of my dick AAAAAAAAAAH AAAAAAH AAAAAAAAH aAAAAAAAAAH AAAAAAAAH AAAAAAAAAH AAAAAAAAAH AAAAAAAAAH and I was stunned like it was like less than 1 time in a thousand was it really I took it out and sure enough the tip of the condom was all white I was dizzy hey good show girl I said I was hoping to see her again sometime soon but I did not write her phone number down I just hoped for good luck take care beautiful see you some other time and I went home and came again into my hand.