YEAH I PRAYED

Yeah right I was a bit drunk and looking for some action with the party girls on the bar that was the right spot for hot sex workers. Went for the hotel with this hot older chubby brunette. She had a bit too much make up on. I decided I wanted her even with too much make up. Hot thick legs. I loved her thick legs right away. Her belly was big. Her tits were a bit small. She had freckles. I just went crazy. Fucked her missionary and then sideways and then came really hard up her pussy doggy style. Then we rested and chatted a bit and then she started sucking my cock once again and soon enough I was fucking her doggy style again. Such a good girl. She drove me over the edge with that hot chubby pussy. She took a shower as I got dressed and said I was going home for a quick shower and then going to bed and waking up next morning to go to the office. As I left I felt she was a bit unsure about my liking her chubby style. I really really didn't know what to say. I went home hoping she would eventually understand I really really found her hot as the bomb. Like I really prayed to the gods to let her know how happy I was that I met her that night. Like I really really hoped for her happy state of mind to be like a reality for her. Like whatever was true about her stories. Whatever. I wanted her to be happy as she could manage. Yeah I prayed to the gods she would be really really happy. Such a good girl!

HOPED FOR

Not only I waked up on my clothes. They were a bit dirty. I remembered getting a cab ride from a friend who lived some four blocks from my place. Maybe I fell on some plants along the sidewalk. I took my clothes off and the bruises on my legs said yes. I took a bath and changed the sheets. Fell asleep again. Later, I checked my pockets. Everything OK. Then I saw the pool of puke in the hall. Maybe the dirt on my clothes was dark cola drink and red meat dry puke. I noticed I had almost puked into my other pair of good shoes. Lucky me. The pair I was wearing had some bruises that looked like me scratching the pavement as I stumbled home. I looked at the answering machine. No messages at all. People were either very mad or not worried at all. I guess I looked like I could managed it when I said goodnight. Then I fell a couple of times after I was alone and striving to find my home. A little strange leaf I found in my shower later made me sure my hair had scratched some plant. I drank some cola. Vomited again. Read a book by the phone and hoped for the best. The TV was showing police and demonstrators clashing somewhere.

TOO STUPID

- What if YOU were the director? Then I bet you would care much more about this movie getting censored!
- I agree. I might even prosecute the censors. But only if I was sure I would win. This planet doesn't give a shit about censorship. Most people are just a bunch of idiots who WANT censorship of anything they strongly disagree with. It's useless to tell them it's a work of art. They believe art should be neat and full of perfect heroes. They want very cruel bad guys on the movies. Sure. But if you get too graphic, they're suddenly afraid and very much against it. I know people like you might even risk getting kicked in the head by the cops while demonstrating for freedom of speech. You are ready to get jailed and get raped in prison for the freedom of idiots who don't even understand what you are talking about. I sure hope there is a special heaven for you guys. But if they are stupid enough to force a dictatorship on me and you and even on themselves, then I don't give a fuck. Let the idiots censor what they want and let the smart ones move to a smarter country and be really free. Let their censoring stupidity fuck up our future as a country with their idiotic limits to art and science. And I pray to the gods that booze will kill me before this mess of a planet gets way too stupid for me.

MY DEAR DEAR FRIENDS

My dear dear friends
Please forgive me
In advance
For the late phone calls
Talking about
Romance
For the very rude passes
The weird trance
For I just gotta
Take a chance

THEN SHE WENT FACE DOWN

Yeah we thanked the gods for the tall shy trannies. Well at least I did. I was a bit shy also but second time around the block I just went straight up to her. Tallest one around for sure. Hi there. The bomb she was. Such a hot actress. Maybe she even meant it a bit. Yeah she was that good. I was on top of her face to face and then sideways and then she went face down for my utmost pleasure the sweetest thing long hair long legs long long orgasm for me oh girl oh such a good good girl hot girl bitch girl oh lovely lovely honey baby OH! GIRL! And then I went home to drink some more and jerk off and fall asleep smiling like a total idiot in heaven.

CHANGED

I was about twelve. This means about 1980. Downtown Rio staring at the porn mags hanging outside the news-stands. Saw this one with this woman on the cover. She was crouching and looking at me over her shoulder. I don't remember the name of the mag. But there were some extra words saying My Anus My Success And What a Success. Like she was telling us about her sex life and whatever career. I just stood there looking at the cover. Wondering if I wanted to be her or fuck her or both things one after the other over and over. Then the lights changed and I crossed the street.

HANDS

Lucky bastard me had two days off. First one I was too fucked up from the nite before and so I just took it easy and listened to some music and read some stuff. No booze. Next nite I felt it was OK to drink again. I went for a tranny but the ones I saw on the streets were not hot enough or maybe I was not drunk enough to let go of my stupid snob mind whatever fuck it I gave up and went to the woman spot but the women there were not that hot either so I went back and forth between spots for a while until I saw this white tall tranny with brown or black hair. She was as tall as a volleyball player. Man! Did she take me in her ass real nice. Face down. I came like crazy holding those sweet big hands.

THE LADY DON'T MIND

You know I think you should be sorry for that drawing.
What? Because I made her hat look like a toilet?
Yeah. That was mean.
That was funny. And a homage.
No way! That was gross.
Her weird clothes are gross, too. I like it.
Not like that.
Well that's my style. Joking can be a homage.
How can you believe that? It's awful.
But I do believe the lady don't mind.

BELIEVE IT OR WHATEVER

Posição 2004 foi arte sem curadoria nem hegemonia. Posição Dois Mil de Quatro foi uma brincadeira com o nome. Não lembro se foi o Toledo, o Fernando ou o Reynaldo quem fez a piada. Não lembra? Mas tu nem bebia naquela época, maluco! Mas voltei a beber uns quatro meses depois. E isso tudo já faz uns sete anos. Vamos mudar de assunto? Eu também achei que foi muito significativo, mas agora fica sendo mais um episódio esquecido, pelo menos por enquanto.

ANYONE CAN BE AN ARTIST

But only a few make good money

YEAH I CALL THIS LITERATURE

Maybe she needed the money really bad. When we got to the room I just felt like a cloud went suddenly over my sun. Maybe she was afraid I was gonna leave without paying because I did not fuck her. I planned to pay her even without sex. We were in the room already. She did not know I felt I owed her the money anyway. She kissed my face and ear. I decided to try and snap out of it. Washed my face. She waited for me outside the loo. She frenched me at once. I just held her tight and enjoyed our tongues. Then she said she did not usually do this kind of kiss. I said I believed her. Said I was happily surprised. Fucked her missionary. She screamed she was cuming. We rested a little. She said she wanted it doggy. Smart babe knew my thing. Boy did I love her thing doggy all the way and all the dirty words and all the spreading cheeks and all my orgasms in one big big shake. She said she was cuming all over again YES! YES! OH! YES! YES! OH! YES! YES! OH! YES! YES! OH! YEAAAAAAAAH! YEAAAH! YEAAAH! YEAAAH! OH! YEAAH! YEAAH! YEAAH! OH! YEAH! YEAH! OH! YEAH! OH! OH! OH! YEAH! OH! YEAH! OH! YEAH! OH! YEAH!

HERE WAS ALL

My world was all ice and crystal. I sat and watched TV like a zombie. Cannot remember the name of the movie. Some japanese animation where everything looked like glass or ice. Colorful. Noble men and women in a world of crystal. I had never seen snow. Never a japanese girl. I was maybe seven and in love forever with a princess that shone like crystals. I cannot remember her face very well. Just the feeling in my heart when she smiled. I wanted to be made of ice and crystal. I wanted to be near her. The film was over. My life was over. This planet here was all I had. It would have to do.

LIKE THE FUCK I CARED

The smell took me back to when I was a kid. It smelled just like my favorite breakfast cereal. Mostly like sugar. Then I jumped into my young man years. Asking my former wife about an old friend of hers. She told me she had died years ago. Her cancer had come back in full fatal force. We were both quite surprised that I had completely misplaced that info inside my head. Then I was back to being a bit too old for lots of things but giving them a go anyway like the fuck I cared what people believed.

SHE WANTED IT DOGGY

Yeah I was a little bit too drunk and so I decided to fuck some woman instead. This hot chubby black babe spot me at once and I was sort of glad because I knew she was hot enough. I sucked on her big tits for a lovely while. Then I put my rubber on and fucked her missionary for a hot long time. Long for me at least. Then she said she wanted it doggy style. Good girl remembered my thing. I just went crazy with her on all fours and after a few minutes I was screaming with pleasure inside that lovely tight black box oh baby yes yes oh yes yes yes take me all the way YES! YEAH! YEAH! YEAH! YEAH! YES! YES! Hmmm. Ah. Lovely girl. Worth the while and the cash.

TO FEEL GOOD

First one was this whitey tranny I knew and boy was she hot hot hot. I came like crazy fucking her as she lay face down such a sexy white babe with blond hair. Then I went for another blond that was chubbier but it was not the hot thing no so I gave up. Next one was a brown skinned tranny. Older and hotter to the eye. In real life not so hot but hot enough for me to cum up her ass and thank her maybe she would rather fuck my ass yeah maybe some other time her dick looked small enough to feel good.

NONE OF US

She was trouble. Friends from college told me she was a liar. I went for a walk with her after class. Asked her a lot for a kiss. She let me kiss her. It was good for me. She did not look very excited. We talked some more. I went home. Next day my friends told me she said I had forced her to kiss me. I told them it was a lie. They could have said they had warned me about her. But they just stood there looking like they believed me. Fine. Then she said she was coming to my place to read the tarot for me and I was stupid enough to say OK. Maybe she was expecting me to pounce on her. I just sat there waiting for her to tell me my future. She gave some excuse about energy and left without reading my future. Then one day we were on the phone and she said she wanted to get a man to fuck us both. Said she would love to see me getting fucked in the ass by another guy. We were having a laugh. Then she said that maybe she would like a good spanking. I said I would do it for her. I grabbed a nearby cushion and hit it hard and asked her over the phone if she could hear it and imagine it and would she really like a good spanking. She laughed nervously and said something like she was only joking and we never talked again. She is probably still pretty hot after all these years. I am glad we never did it. It would mean trouble. None of us had heard about safewords.

ABSURDLY LONG

My spaceship went down smoothly. He was waiting outside their hub. We had agreed beforehand that he was gonna fuck me before I fucked his wife. He was as big as he had told me. Rocking my ass real good. I took it doggy and screamed with pleasure. He was that hot up my ass. Then his wife came into the chamber. Big ass babe just my thing she was. Masochistic honey I knew. I told her to get naked and get on all fours like a good girl. She did as I told her. He was watching and wanking. I grabbed her like the bitch I was telling her she was and gave it to her up the ass in just one move like at once like just one hard move. She gasped with pleasure. Maybe pain. She knew I did not care and said it made her hotter. So I fucked her ass for a good good absurdly long long time like fuck it I don't care if your ass is bleeding no I AM gonna use you tonight and I WILL cum up your ass all the way in like I want like I like it like I love it like I need it OH YOU BITCH! YOU SLUT! I LOVE YOUR ASS! I LOVE YOU! YE-AH! AAAAAAAAAAH!

COLD AND FRIENDLY

Sure I was drunk but I believe. The street was empty when she showed up around the corner. Her skin was so white it was a bit green. Her hand was pretty hot when she held mine and said she was from very far away and wanted to talk to me. I asked her for a nearby booze joint. Then I took her to a hotel. Her dick was as big as my arm. The head was shining like a lantern. She told me it was OK. She would not hurt me. She put on a black condom and told me she was gonna fuck me doggy style like I never had it before. She was right. It didn't feel too big. It felt wonderful. I came like crazy. We stared at the ceiling for a while. She said that was part of a very important experiment for her planet. I asked her where was her flying saucer. She said it was sort of invisible. Then she kissed me hard and long and went out the window and vanished into thin air. The stars looked cold and friendly.

NEXT TIME

First tranny was like I was too drunk to get it up so I gave up here's your cash thank you. Second tranny was a bore here's your cash bye bye. Third one was a woman but when I tried to pay her in advance I noticed I did not have the money I said I would give her. I told her I was sorry I was so drunk I did not notice my money was gone I tried to call it off but she was nice and took my dick up her pussy for less than half her price and boy was I happy fucking that pussy missionary then sideways then coming real hard up her doggy style oh such a good girl she was really quite probably thirty or something just the right girl to make my drunken self relax and feel totally at home. Thank you girl I hope next time I will do you in the ass.

SOON ENOUGH

The park was empty. We were three boys about twelve. Quite probably virgins. That was normal around 1979. Or so I thought. But we thought about fucking girls all the time. Or so did I. So we were talking about sex and this guy was describing the sounds women were supposed to make when getting fucked by a guy. He sounded so real I joked about his masculinity. But he was cool and explained he was just acting. I said nothing. He still sounded a bit gay. As he always did. I wonder where he is now. Is he bi? I sure am! Not sure if I look like one. And not sure how the hell is a bi guy supposed to look. Maybe bi guys come in all sort of different styles? Maybe the way they come and go are their business? Nah! Surely human beings cannot be that free? Are you really stupid enough not to notice I am being ironic here? Surely you know people may look the same but they really are different from each other except for the fact that they all want pleasure? Don't worry if you don't understand. This truth will hit you in the face soon enough.

NO EXPLANATIONS

We will look dead
Someday
Even though
We do believe
We are immortal
In other
Dimensions

So do your thing
Be free
Be glad
No explanations

DISBELIEVE

Nineteen years down the road she would be a beautiful young woman with a nice young boyfriend and series of jobs that payed her bills and maybe even were a bit of fun. But at that moment she was this little girl telling me about a schoolboy she knew that went deaf because of some sickness. Her mother was talking to my wife just a couple of steps away but the little girl was telling me and only me the sad story. She did not raise her voice. It was almost a whisper. She looked at me like she also meant to say that she knew life was a violent and meaningless time before we die. But she said this just by looking into my eyes. I was speechless for one second. Then I stared at the floor. Then her mother said something that brought us into their conversation. Their conversation was a place where life could feel lighter if you laughed about yourself. She was so young I hope she does not remember the boy unless there is something she can do about it. Which I doubt. I hope she never reads this story. I am truly sorry I cannot erase it. I wish I knew why. But only if there was something I could do about it. Which I strongly disbelieve.

LEFT WITHOUT

I had decided I was going to try fucking a plastic doll. I saw this sex shop. The only doll I saw there was not inflatable. It was made of rubber or something. Really only a torso and a head with long black hair and chinese eyes looking over the shoulder like you were fucking her from behind. Trouble was she was so small it looked like she was only ten. I was a bit shocked. But then at least they were not selling real children as sex slaves. I left without buying anything.