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I arrived home with a magazine I wasn't supposed to be able to buy because I was like 15 at the most and it was meant for people over 18 and it took me a lot of guts to ask the man to sell it to me but it worked and I was so excited I barely hided it and that was a big mistake 'cause I arrived home and my dad was talking to my aunt and asked me which magazine was that and I was stupid enough to tell the truth and try to act casual but he felt diminished by my brazen talk and I never saw the inside of the magazine 'cause he confiscated it on the spot what could I say he was my dad and it was illegal for me to buy it I still remember the cover of it and never found it on used magazines stores I think maybe I will die before I find out what I missed and anyway it probably would not make any difference now that I'm old enough and have seen so much hard porn but still I wonder and I guess humans are like that they wonder if about stuff they can never get 'cause it's all in the past and that is something you can't touch except maybe in stories you tell and feel somewhat good about telling it is funny like that and if it is not funny for you that's too bad 'cause that is really all you have in this life except maybe for what you are doing for fun right now.